My computer is half dead. Seriously. It's sluggish. Unresponsive half the time. I get on and I want to shoot the dang thing. I'm thinking I have some sort of virus. And I'll just admit that there's a twinge of embarrassment as if I just told you that I have an STD. Like, if you read my blog, maybe I'll transmit something to your computer. ick. Anyway, it's the computer that would have the virus, not me. And I've been googling as much as possible to try to figure out what course I should take. I imagine my computer is being devoured by some cyberworm that originated in Malaysia. This morning I deleted a wad of temporary internet files and some other junk and was very hopeful. But, alas, this crud continues.
But, is it merely crud? Here's what's been going on in my noodle...Because my computer is slower than dial-up (even when I'm not using the internet!!!), I can hardly stand to even check my email, blogs, facebook, whatever. (I REALLY carved out time to catch up on blogs...and it's actually not going too slowly right now.) Anyway...as I was saying...I haven't been on the computer as much. So. In my "spare" time, I started studying the book of James really slowly and deliberately. It's been really good. I mean, it's actually more enthralling than reading blogs and writing on my blog and googling people from high school. This is admittedly, very surprising to yours truly. I think I'm engaged with this study because my nose hasn't been stuck in my laptop. So, I'm thinking this might be God's answer to my prayer to find Him and His Word to be more dazzling in my life than anything else.
One memorable quote (not verbatim) from my pastor went something like this, "How can you make yourself not be hungry for Thanksgiving supper? Eat. Fill up on white bread. And then, the good stuff (nutritious and delicious) won't even sound appealing." More than I'd like to admit, I fill up on the joys of this world (t.v., blogging, facebook). And then, when I open my Bible, I think...well...nothing. It's just not appealing to me. I'm full. I'm...satisfied-ish.
So, eventhough, I'm literally heavy-hearted about my halfling of a computer, I'm a little glad, because...well...I'm more intrigued by what the Creator of a zillion galaxies has to say in his Word. So, if I didn't make it clear...yes...I do think that God is sovereign over my laptop. Praise be to Him!!!
p.s. Preview of posts to come. 1.) Today, my dear friend Keitha moved to Minneapolis. Our children became fast friends today as they met for the first time. Great story on how we met. 2.) My little girl turns one on Wednesday!!! 3.) My dear friend, Sarah, comes to Minneapolis on Thursday to visit me for the first time since she moved away from St. Louis in 2003!!! (I've gone to see her, so we have actually hung out a few short times since then!) 4.) And then there's all the randomness that I have yet to share with you!!!